QUARRELLED!

First ever so damn serious quarrel after 1 year 1 month together.. You shouting at me that way made me kinda hate you.. Really sorry that I was not sensitive and understanding enough ba.
I think it will take quite some time for this feeling to subside.. Have this fear in my heart. I don't know how to feel that you love me, when you shout at me. Suddenly half of me don't feel like continuing.. o.O but I still love you ba.


I'm a weirdo, and I have been, all along. I remember, in primary 4.. I was crying and Nigel came over to ask me to cheer up, to stop crying. I told him to mind his own business. :/ You see, I've been such a weirdo. When people don't care, I feel upset, thinking that no one cares. When people care, I retreat into my own comfort zone, away from people. Contradicting. -_-"

I don't like people to know too much about me, to care for me. Probably cos' I don't wanna disappoint them in some ways..? And also, I don't want anyone to be so close that when one who became so close to me suddenly exits my life, I won't feel so upset. Sometimes I think I'm perfectly fine alone, but other times I feel so OMG lonely in this world. :(