Had a LONG weekend with my dearest. :D Was really great. We went shopping on Thursday after he booked out, went Wheelock to send my iPod in to get replaced. Then just randomly walked around Orchard, shopping. My dearie bought like 2 polo tees. One from Burberry, and one from Tommy Hilfiger. I DIDN'T BUY ANYTHING FOR MYSELF!! Surprised ba. :p But I bought an Agatha hair clip for dearie's mum as an Xmas gift cos I broke hers last week. So malu. ><

Friday we went to Bugis there to pray, and went shopping around Parco Bugis Junction. Went to have lunch at Hip Diner USA. I wouldn't say the lunch was yummy.. And it cost 50 bucks. -.- Should have went to Sakae Teppanyaki or even the Sakae buffet. O'well.. Then we went to town to get tix for Twilight, and queue for my NEED FOR SPEED UNDERCOVER. LOVE IT MAN!!! But the queuing part is like so malu.. :/ They still take pics. Sheesh.. Hope they didn't like snap me. :D After getting my game, we walked over to Paragon to meet Jonathan and Cheryl. Walked around, window shopping. Then went to eat dearie's favourite Japanese food. Then walked back to Plaza Singapura for our movie. Loved the movie. The dad vampire so handsomeeeeee..!

Saturday's the big day man! My long awaited SHANGRI-LA one night stay. OMG LA THE BED SO BIGGG. KING SIZE YOU KNOW. THE BATHROOM SO NICE! Everything was so wow perfect! And there was automated curtains too. Lie on the bed, don't feel like getting up already. :X Had buffet at The Line restaurant.. Loved the oysters as usual. :p And the fondue. AND THE ICE CREAM!! I wouldn't say the food is very nice on the overall, but the fresh seafood is really yumyum! And their service is great. But 90+ bucks a person isn't worth it. I'm dreaming of fondue + ice cream now. CRAVINGS. :X

Sunday, check out day! Wanted to go swimming in the morning, but couldn't get up on time cos the bed was simply so wonderful. Woke up at 11, went shower and chiong down to check out already. Then cabbed down to Cine for brunch, after that we took a bus home. Once we got home, I climbed up the bed and went back to dreamland while dearie groomed the dogs. I'm such a slackerrrr! Then at around 4+ (I think..), dearie woke me up, we went to Serangoon Gardens for lunch with Si Kuan. Dined at Thai Express. Yummy tom yam soup. ^^ Then we went over to Island Creamery (dunno how to spell) for desserts. I think I saw Adrian's pic stuck there on the wall. -.-" Then we went home. Was gonna withdraw money for SK at the petrol kiosk, saw so many bangala. :X They look so rich! About 6 of them there, each withdrew like one stack of 50 dollars, maybe 1k each person. RICH LIKE HELL!! If the wind blow the money away, and I can manage to catch like 10% of all the money, I'd be rich too la. DREAMING HUH. LOL!

Then the most sian part.. Dearie book in again.. T_T~

QUARRELLED!

First ever so damn serious quarrel after 1 year 1 month together.. You shouting at me that way made me kinda hate you.. Really sorry that I was not sensitive and understanding enough ba.
I think it will take quite some time for this feeling to subside.. Have this fear in my heart. I don't know how to feel that you love me, when you shout at me. Suddenly half of me don't feel like continuing.. o.O but I still love you ba.


I'm a weirdo, and I have been, all along. I remember, in primary 4.. I was crying and Nigel came over to ask me to cheer up, to stop crying. I told him to mind his own business. :/ You see, I've been such a weirdo. When people don't care, I feel upset, thinking that no one cares. When people care, I retreat into my own comfort zone, away from people. Contradicting. -_-"

I don't like people to know too much about me, to care for me. Probably cos' I don't wanna disappoint them in some ways..? And also, I don't want anyone to be so close that when one who became so close to me suddenly exits my life, I won't feel so upset. Sometimes I think I'm perfectly fine alone, but other times I feel so OMG lonely in this world. :(

All you'll ever care about is your own feelings.

As though I don't feel so wasted for you? I just don't wanna say, so you won't feel so upset about it. Different people, different style of handling i guess? I don't know. When I failed to make the cut for y3 you just kept saying that it was so wasted and stuff.. How do you think it'll make me feel? You don't know la...

Ya, i'm slack. So very slack. Think what you want. I can't be bothered.

It's been 12 days since my last post. During this 12 days, my life had been a rollercoaster. Highs and lows.

Driving makes me really happy.. Just as my boyfriend said it would. It really takes my mind off things, cos' i gotta concentrate on the roads. I think it's so tough to be told where to turn. >_<" Like if I had it all planned in my head on where to go, it will be easier.

I held a job for a day, cos i quit the next. Being a waitress isn't really tough. Just that one has to stand for staggeringly long hours. Being a waitress at this certain place was an experience. Just hate the way some people treated me. But I seriously didn't quit cos of that, like what my mum thinks alright. :( I can't handle having a job which eats into my private time with my boyfriend over the phone. It's a MUST HAVE!

I waited for 5 days, my boyfriend finally booked out yesterday. But after seeing him for 8 hours, he had to book in, for guard duty. Sighs... Before we left home, I hugged him so tightly and buried my head in his chest. I didn't wanna let go. I just want to keep holding on to him, so he won't have to leave me. I tried not to cry cos I know it breaks his heart to see me upset. But I can't help it. I just sobbed so hard. Boyfriend, don't you ever leave me.. I need you.

Truthfully speaking, sometimes I'm really a little tired of settling guild disputes. But I can't stand seeing any of my friends upset, or not talking to one another. Getting myself involved in everything is so tiring. But I know they're all super nice people, and just at the spur of the moment, cannot put themselves in others' shoes. C'mon people! PEACE!

And he's gone again.

I miss you dear.

I want you by my side 24/7.. I'm willing to give up anything just to spend time with you. But you're not like this, I think...?
You have far more self discipline I suppose. Unlike me, I'd just skip school for a few more hours with you. Guess I should stop being this way. Time to have a life of my own? Sigh, I will try...

Have to ring up the driving instructor later on. Shitty. I detest making phone calls.. :(